New Years | Work

Monday, January 5th

The 26th was eventful for me, and I ended up leaving for Katy at around 11 pm, and arriving at almost 2 in the morning. The next morning at around 6, I drove to the airport and picked up my mom and brother.

I spent the week helping my mom move and shop for her new apartment. I also began to work out again, because I am finally actually healthy, and her apartment complex had a nice gym. I ended up becoming exhausted by the time the week was over due to moving and driving and a lot of thinking about some personal things.

New Years was nice because I was able to see my sister and her kid, who is simply adorable and loves me a lot. I miss them already.

Since returning to Austin, things have been a little difficult, mainly because there are a couple things I am trying to figure out regarding my own personal life, and thinking too much has been a little stressful.

Today, I woke up a little late, then went to work. I actually really enjoy working, because it takes my mind off of things and is kind of therapeutic. It was kind of a long first day back, and I began to feel sick partway through but thanks to a friend I took some medicine and ate and felt better and was able to finish my shift.

Afterwards, I took a nap, which was for some reason much needed, and then went to the gym. I'm getting back into the workout routine and it feels really motivating. I want to start seeing progress again and I'm going to work hard to make it happen. I don't have any concrete goals but I think if I just focus on feeling good and working hard, then I will see progress.

Other than that, lately I've just been feeling kind of rollercoaster-like; my emotions are just all over the place and I'm really confused about what I feel so I'm taking a little breather and having some tea while listening to the radio on Spotify. Recently I haven't been listening to a lot of Korean music, mainly because I don't really like many of the new releases but also because I discovered some American pop and indie songs and artists that I'm a fan of so I have been listening to them instead.

All I really know right now is that despite being independent and strong-willed, which I do believe I am, sometimes I long for some guidance and sympathy. I'm not the type to vent or cry about something to people, but I did yesterday and it felt kind of good to let out my thoughts and have someone genuinely try to help.

On another note, my face has broken out more than ever right now, and no matter what I do I just can't seem to get rid of the crazy acne. It's everywhere, literally. I'm just going to try to eat really clean and drink plenty of water and hope that it helps.

tldr; This isn't an interesting post at all, but sometimes it helps to just write stuff down - anything.